How to eat properly?

I’ve had some big issues on how big meals, how small meals etc. to eat. … “FOOD” has been the issues.

But now I am eating, and I sort of love to eat. The thing is, that my body needs food like every 3 hours. It’s like a clock. I can’t eat more at one point, because I’ll still be hungry again. 

So I need to sort out what to eat in between and how much… I love eating, but I hate it. And I wish I didn’t have to eat everyday. Or I just wish that I knew WHAT I wanted and needed to eat.

I’m so stressed…

out. I’ve got a lot of school work to do. I quit one of my jobs, but working my first shift at my other job this friday. So nervous… Can’t. Stop. Thinking. About. It.

Yesterday I fell back into old habits. It was like my depression came right back, just like that. I didn’t feel like doing anything. Had a laundry day… All I did, kind of. And cleaned some.

So, now I’m behind on my school work, on finding the right education after the summer, trying to find a job that have more available shifts… etc.

Yesterday, my boy wanted to go swimming. But I just couldn’t. I wouldn’t. I told him, he had to go on his own. But we’re in this together, so he didn’t go ‘cus he didn’t feel like leaving me home alone with “myself”. Even thou, yesterday, I wasn’t myself. The old me came creeping back. The darkness took over me.

I measured myself this morning, which I haven’t done in a while. But I can tell that my body is changing. I think that I’ve gotten some ab muscles, since I’ve gained 1,5 cm around my waist, but lost about 2 cm over my tummy. And my thighs are thinner. My arms were too, even but when I flex - THEY ARE BIGGER!

Anyhow, I’ve haven’t been doing any more work out than swimming 3 times/week. Just because, i feel to stressed out. Crap.

I need some motivation. Today I put on my work out bra, and I’ve laid out my yoga mat…. I need to do some school work, otherwise I won’t be able to concentrate on the work out. But yes. Today I am going to do it.

If you’ve got any advise for me, I’d love it. 

(Source: fit-investment)